One of those kind of days.

Ever start off the week and wish it was over? Yeah, I'm there, right now. I have a lot of work to do for classes, but not what I would consider ungodly. It's completely doable. I just need to not waste my time, and it would be somewhat extremely helpful if I didn't have to go to work or my classes. It would definitely give me more time. I can do it. I just don't want to.

I do have one question though. Have you ever had a crush or been infatuated with someone, and they are well aware of this, and they tell you about this guy they like, wish they were in a relationship with, but can't because they missed out? This happened. It sometimes happens to me, but it usually occurs without them knowing my feelings about them. I can completely understand being rejected, as much as it hurts, because you have feelings for someone else, but to reject me without rejecting me is more than demoralizing and more than I can stand. I guess the whole cuddling thing and when you told me you weren't wearing pants to go to sleep but I couldn't come up really means nothing. I thought that maybe this person was, at least, sending me signals. I suppose they don't know what they're doing, which I can understand.

I'm going to say what I always say, "I'm done with women and pursuing a relationship." Of course, I'm constantly saying it and never doing it. I'm, for all intensive purposes, a hypocrite. I don't care though. I'm a hopeless romantic who's mostly hopeless. It's all right though, I'm used to it.

On another note (cliché!) I am currently going through a good deal of seemingly random pain in my head/face/eye area. I don't suppose that this is part of the healing process, and it has me worried. The more I worry, the more it seems to inexplicably hurt. The pain also occurs when I'm not worrying, and sometimes when I'm asleep. I'm not sure what to do. So, I'll have to wait until I see the doctor... Hopefully it's just due to stress.

Hope you're doing better than me,

Nathan